Joyce’s Testimony from CCPC:
Joyce was here on a short-term team with her church both last year and this year. Both times she served at KCC.
I clearly remember coming to KCC last summer with much anxiety, wondering how an awkward girl like me could face the university students and sustain a conversation with them, let alone form a relationship with them. Then my world was rocked on the first day when the very first conversation I had with a group of three girls led straight into sharing our testimonies–past the small talk and past the potential awkward silences. It had broken whatever barriers there may have been, and ultimately, our relationship had been founded in Christ who is unchanging. As I spent a week with the students at KCC, I not only was able to further my relationship with them but also, God convicted me of my complacency in my Christian walk through them. Their boldness to share their life, struggles, and faith with not only our team but also to strangers challenged me. Their eagerness to know more about Jesus and their faith through their questions they asked humbled me. Their passion for worship and fellowship moved me. And by God’s grace, I had the opportunity to go back to learn more and see the work God’s been doing this past year.
As I prayed and prepared to go to Cambodia this summer, my heart was conflicted. I was so eager to go back, and at the same time, I was nervous. This time, it was not because I was worrying about forming relationships with the students. This time, I was nervous because I wasn’t sure how things might have changed within the last year. I myself wasn’t sure of what expectations I held in my heart, but I feared any disappointments I may come to encounter. I feared the possible heartbreak from hearing about students leaving the church or falling away from faith. I feared that I would compare what I had learned and experienced last year with what I would learn and experience this summer. Even through my anxieties, God gently reminded me through His Word to be less consumed in my own feelings and thoughts–that He must increase and that I must decrease.
So it was such a breath of fresh air from my own thoughts and fears when I first re-entered the doors of KCC and the sense of familiarity gushed in. It was calming to see the familiar faces of the pastors, missionaries, and students and it gave me much joy to see that they still had their joyful hearts, still eager to learn and serve. I also witnessed some changes that really encouraged me and reminded me of God’s faithfulness. Within a year, the women’s dorm grew from 7 women to now over 20! Within a year, I also saw that the number of students who were taking ownership and being leaders of the ministry had grown. On the flip side, some of the fears that I had in my heart were a reality. But instead of the anticipated disappointment and heartbreak, I was reminded that even these things are a part of God’s perfect plan. Things may seem to have gone awry in our eyes, but God is sovereign and He is glorified in both these “good” and “not so good” changes.
My time in Cambodia and at KCC has been so short. What I’ve seen and experienced is merely a glimpse of the bigger picture–of the ministry there and of what God’s great plan is. What I’ve seen through the students and the missionaries has once again challenged me, and the relationships I’ve formed with them remind me that life beyond the praises and thanks of the church is not always so fine and dandy. Both the students and the missionaries encounter struggles in their lives and battle with sin, and I was deeply convicted to be in prayer for them and the work God is doing through them in Cambodia. I don’t know what changes the next 365 days will bring in the lives of each individual and as a ministry, but one thing that I know is that God is good. He has been faithful from the very beginning and He will continue to be faithful until the very end.